Chasing Cars

I want to be Wonder Woman. No, I don't want to run around town in a leotard and cape (no thanks necessary, dear readers). I want to be a woman who can do it all, have it all, be it all. I want to do things well and be appreciated for them. I don't want things to be taken for granted because BlinkBlink has a positive track record.

Some days, I hate my job. And then I feel guilty because in this economy, I know I am so lucky to have a position with stability and great benefits. Many people would kill for this kind of opportunity right now. The job has enabled me to buy a house, and if the IRS ever decides to send me a check, the purchase of that house will help me eliminate a large chunk of debt. However, I don't feel like what I do matters - like I am making a difference to anyone other than spoiled faculty members.

Today, I feel like I'm just an average person, living an average life. Average isn't enough. I want spectacular! Amazing! Exciting! Joyful! Even if it's just for today.

Thanksgiving

I'm thankful for my own little house - my port in the storm. I'm thankful for my friends, my therapist, and even my fucked up family. I'm thankful this day is almost over.